and when the world treats you way too fairly

i wanted it to be you

i wanted it to be you when you held me tightly so i wouldn't come apart

i wanted it to be you when you made me laugh so hard my belly would hurt

i wanted it to be you when you explained everything to me not because you thought i wouldn't get it but because it just excited you too much

i wanted it to be you when you would look away and the light hit your eyes and i saw coffee caramel reflected in them

i wanted it to be you when you cared for me

i wanted it to be you when you opened up to me

i wanted it to be you when your thumb scratched the back of my neck

i wanted it to be you when you smiled at me

when you looked at me

when you laughed

and when you pouted

and when you walked with me

and when you kissed my cheek goodbye
 

i wanted
 

             i wanted
 

                          i wanted
 

i even wanted it to be you when you told me "you're still my friend"

and i even want it to be you now, holding back tears and the need to wrap my arms around your midsection and never let go
 

i wish wanting didnt hurt this bad

maybe then id be able to stop wanting you